Day 6 - The Spew

I feel a little bit like a whiner.  Spewing my discontent with life and responsibilities.  Going on about my drama.  But, it is making me feel better.  It's helping me let some of this frustration and anxiety go. 

It has become obvious that in my pursuit to simplify my life I am going to have to deal with the clutter, both physical and mental.  I think all of my previous pursuits have dealt meerly with the physical.  I have had this naive notion that if I can remove responsibilities and "stuff" somehow life will be simple.

Then my husband reminded me of someone we know who does not work or have a family and is virtually free to do as he pleases.  And he is the most stressed out person I know.  So stressed that he thinks going away (literally) is the only way to simplify his life. 

I thought I would start this blog and start moving towards a life of simplicity.  I planned to blog about the simple living philosophy and quickly move to lasagna gardening, debt free living and living green.

I'm not sure how long it will take me to get there.  I have much work to do until then.  A lot of that work has to be accomplished through God's work in my heart and spirit.  It is clear to me that I have an abundance of anger that I have learned well how to mask. I beleive psychologists call that depression - anger turned inward. My scope and sequence may have to be refined.  My time line of a year may not be sufficient.  I may need a lifetime.