Sunday, November 22, 2009

Day 21 - Clarification

In the title line of my blog I ask for you to follow along for a year as I journey towards simplifying my life.  Problem.  I have been confusing simplification with a simple life.

I can't have a simple life.  Let me restate.  I can't have a simple life and live the life I believe God has called me to.  I can't live a simple life and raise my son and someone else's son at the same time.  I can't live a simple life and work at a school where there are more spiritual, physical and educational needs than are imaginable.  I can't live a simple life and make a difference in the life of others. 

A simple life requires selfishness.  I am selfish.  I am also unselfish.  I want to be more unselfish, not more selfish.

So goodbye simple life.  You are not for me.  My conscience would not be satisfied.  I have seen the dark side of life and I can't walk away from trying to make things better. 

That being said I do believe that I can simplify my complicated life.  I can do things that better prepare me to live a complicated life.  I can make changes that give me more energy.  I can systemize.  I can ask for help.  I can learn to trust God more and worry less. 

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