Day 11 - Lies I have told

1.  I'm fine

2.  I know what you mean

3.  That didn't hurt

4.  It's no big deal

5.  I don't really care

6.  No problem

7.  I would have done the same thing

8.  You shouldn't blame yourself

9.  Yes

10.  No

11.  I'll be glad to do it

12.  I know how to do that

13.  You made the right choice

14.  It's not your fault

15.  It doesn't really matter

16.  I trust you

17.  You can do it

18.  I beleive in you

19.  I can handle it


I have told all of these lies to people I love, people I don't care for, people I don't know and to myself.  Sometimes I have lied and not even known it.  Sometime I knew it and refused to accept it.  Sometimes it was just an automatic response.  Sometimes I wanted you to feel better.  Sometime I wanted you to like me better.  Sometime I wanted to like myself better. 

I have also said these things and meant them.  And because I know MY words are sometimes used without integrity I make the assumption that YOUR words also are not always true.  And sometimes, when I am in "one of those moods" I begin to doubt everything that is said to me, particularly the good stuff.   

One thing I know that I want, one thing that I know will improve the quality of my life, simplify my life, make me healthier is for ALL of my words (spoken and written) to be 100% true, 100% of the time.  I know that this is what God desires.  It is now what I desire.  But, I have desired things and not done them because I am afraid.

I don't want to be afraid.  I want to be honest, yet not hurt others.  Maybe sometimes I need to be completely honest even if it will hurt because maybe in the long run it will cause less pain than if I let the lie live on.  This will be a process.  And if I hurt you along the way, please know that my intention is simply to tell the truth.