Back in the day when I was a working Dietitian I was always amazed by people with Diabetes. They could be in the hospital, two days past a foot amputation and still eating as much sugar as they could get and assuring everyone who would listen that they really didn't have Diabetes, it was just a foot infection. Denial. So powerful. So dangerous.
Yet here I am with heart issues and acting like everything is okay. My total cholesterol is close to 300 and my LDL is 200 - DANGEROUS. When I had chest pains and went to the ER 2 years ago the EKG showed that at some time I had had a mild heart attack. My doctor has wanted me on cholesterol lowering medication for years. I keep putting it off. I know that I need to lose weight and start exercising. I keep putting it off.
So today all day I have been having chest pains. In my mind I know it is not normal, but I keep rationalizing that it can't be a heart issue. I"m 44. It's probably heartburn. Maybe I pulled a muscle. Tonight Bob comes home and suggests Koppe Bridge. I have a hamburger and fries for dinner.
I'm sure there is some pyschological term for people who live in denial. But I don't want to know. I don't have time to worry about why my chest keeps tightening. I have too much to do. Or maybe I have too much to do because I don't want to worry about it.
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