Day 112 - 21

I'm not 21 any longer.  My bones tell me that frequently.  And when I look in the mirror I am instantly reminded.  Damn mirror.

But, once I was 21.  And I remember it and it doesn't feel that far away.  It doesn't feel 23 years ago.  Part of me still feels 21.  Somedays I wake up surprised that I am married, a mother, a teacher, a homeowner.  When you look at me do you see that 21 year old?  Or do you only see a middle aged woman?  I still have dreams and hopes for my future.  I still love a man and desire him.  I still have insecurities.  I still have a lot to learn.  I still love to laugh and have fun with my friends.  I still have ups and downs.  Success and failure.  Strengths and weaknesses. 

I am not just 44.  I am all of the years and experiences along the way to 44.  I am 0-44.  And 21 falls in between.  So, I guess I am 21 after all.