Friday, February 19, 2010

Day 111 - Split

Tonight my son is with his mom.  It is where he goes every other weekend, Thursday evenings and one month in the summer.

I miss him. 

Sometimes I hold back from giving him every last ounce of my love.

Because I do not have all of him.

And it hurts too much.

I have lost him before and I survived.

But not completely intact.

One day he will be neither here nor there.

He will be grown and making his own choices about where he goes.

And I will miss him then.

As I do now.

And I will wonder if he is happy and safe and well loved.

As I do now.

Sleep well Sweet Pea.  Child of my heart.

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