Sunday, February 14, 2010

Day 106 - I Feel

Occasionally.  Every once in a blue moon.  I feel small.

Like all of my life as a total is a joke.  Barely significant.

It started with a dream.  A nightmare.  Too awful to spill onto this page.  Too awful to think that my mind can hold those thoughts.

From there I have felt inadequate.  I'm not the wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, teacher, neighbor, etc that I need to be.

I dress like a slob.  I'm fat.  I'm not smart enough.

And so the list goes on and on.

Negative thinking.

Serves no purpose but to bring me down.  Hold me down. 

I think tomorrow I will wake up in a better mood.

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